Sex Love and God 04/17 by CarlaHollandStrange | Blog Talk Radio

Sex Love and God 04/17 by CarlaHollandStrange Blog Talk Radio

Helping Others

I don't know why I never learn, nor stop this bad behavior that I have.......... it kicks me in the ass every single time.  I bring people into my life or home and lose everything everytime.  This time only 2 people were in my home and my cell phones, camera, broadband and tons of electronic wiring disappeared while I was at the library.  I got 2 of my phones and my camera back......... but one of the phones with all my contacts and broadband is still gone. 

I live my life under the Golden Rule and it hurts so bad to be betrayed.  Even after all of that I cant stop helping people........................... And it will end up killing me.

Because of helping people I have lost
my car
3 homes
the years of content I shot
my ids
cameras
all my clothes
furnitur
my childrens photo albums
my sons clothes
the company that I created
12 pets
and alot of time my self respect.
I have been beaten
Put in jail
verbally abused
Lost my grandchild after raiseing him 8 years
My toothbrush 4 times
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I always try to see good in people and believe in them and sometimes I am honored that I gave some of them second chances... they blossomed into people anyone would be proud to know...... even one that got high and plotted to have me killed.  But the ones that are not redeemable how many chances am I suppose to give? God gave me no freewill........... I am not weak in any form but always treated like I am..... Do I give up being the person I am to survive?

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

I guess I will keep

Manifesting MY Dreams

I got this vision today, but it was thoughts that I had always had........... it is time for the great changes that I have felt coming for a long time and I choose to manifest these blessings and I KNOW that God has this already in motion for me.

A man that truely is my twinsoul
My retreats and school coming within the year
Money problems going away and having financial security
My Charities Becoming Reality
 I pray this in the name of God the Father and Mother Earth

The Sensual Healing Institute.... A Spiritual Awakening Center

Well Rick and I got the old school house in Smithville for the spiritual awakening center!!!!! YEAH!  We are doing it broke as usual, but the owner is giving us 2 months free rent while we do repairs and of course I have to keep working during all of this.  But I am thankful for all the blessings that he has given me thru all of this.  Two years of the crazy drunks that Rick went thru and he finally let me do a healing on him (like I had been begging him to do ) and he hasn't been drunk again..... he even quit smoking!

The Center will offer

• Training Programs for Sensualist and Healers
• Praise and Spiritual Services
• Community Outreach Programs
• Alternative Medicine Clinics in Smithville and Austin
• Adult Learning Programs
• Counceling and Relocation Help
• Daycare for the Future Goddesses
• Addiction Recovery Services

We sure need donations or at least people that will click the links on my Blogs and websites!

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Richard John DiGiacomo

Chapter Two .... Symptoms of Awakening

When I talk about the nightmares that you go thru when you awaken, they truly are nightmares but in 3D! In this chapter I am going to go thru some of the signs and symptoms of awakening.  I am not going to gloss over it like so many sites do, thinking that they are helping people, but in reality it is endangering lives to not be blunt about what they are going thru.

Google 2009 and mass murders, 2009 was the first huge wave of awakenings and people killed themselves and each other.  I can tell you that there were 55 mass murders in Spring of 2009! Because when you begin to change you ARE crazy! Because you do not understand what is happening ............ You are going from 3D to 4D!   Your realizing alot of things and none of it is making sense.

Lets go thru some of the symptoms

sleep patterns change (wake up all night long) 2-4am
new abilities or skills that you never had before
people are drawn to you for no reason (you can help them transition and they sense that)
you sense shit that others are doing behind your back
you ache
you have weird accidents
you piss people off like crazy
your money slacks off (to almost none)
you start noticing Karma effects
you think ya go to love everyone.............YOU don't!!!!!!!!
negative shit is drawn to you........... just short term it will come back

What I am saying is that God throws crazy shit at you and he wants to see how you handle it.  Fuck He sent me so many crazies to take care of it was devastating.  I lost not one but 2 houses trying to take care of these losers.... some I still love.... others are not redeemable!

I will go thru the crazy stuff I did in the next chapter......... and it was insane........but needed it to get a firm footing on whom I am and Gods purpose for me.

Chapter One.... and in the beginning?

Well let's get this out first ... my name is Carla Holland-Strange.... feel free to google me.  I have been telling people that for years because I get tired of people not believeing the crazy fucking life I have had.  Hell I would not have believed it if I hadn't had to live every crazy day of it.

Let's go thru a few of the things that God has made me do thru the years, and yes I said MADE me do... it used to be the Devil Made me do it right?  Here is a list of just a few of the things that I have been.

• waitress at 12
• library aide at 16
• city worker doing curb and gutter
• bar waitress
• bartender
• stripper
• brothel prostitute
• Mormon Stake Missionary
• escort
• famous escort
• nude cover model at 350 pounds
• famous escort service owner that only had Big Girls
• famous dog breeder to the stars
• back to escort'hooker
• porn producer (I am listed in the Adult Who's Who)
• and last but not least I am now and forever an Awakened Angelic/ Healer/Intuitive/Empath (and it ain't pretty) and Nudist

Through my awakening I have followed others path in trying to show Love and Light to others that are awakening... but that is all lies and bullshit.  God does not change who you are when you awaken... he changes how you see and feel everything.

I was a pottied mouth, fun porn producer when I began to awaken and I am still a potty mouth Rev. now.  I loved Sex before I awakened and I love it now.... boy do I love it!  Wait till ya have one of those Ultimate God given Orgasms with no fear or guilt!  They are awesomeeeeeeee.  I drank like a fish before I awakened and I still drink, just never get drunk......... unless I am around alot of drunks... that is the Empath in me I guess.

My only changes in who I am as a person is that I realize whatever I do ... never do harm.  I read a blog the other day from another awakened and to be honest, if I had to be that goodie goodie I would kill myself.  In fact everytime someone ask me if I am going to heaven I will tell them I hope not! They don't serve wine there and the bands aren't that good.

I am writing this blog to explain that when you awaken, and you will.  It is going to be scary, hurt like hell and make you want to hide from the world.... just remember two words that God kept throwing at me Believe (believe that your not crazy as a loon) and Faith (have faith in the one that had faith in YOU)

My last blog and future book was the goodie goodie look at awakening with me being the victim/martyr to Rick's evil side.  Thing is I didn't leave Rick for one reason and one reason only!  We are twinflames, two halves of a whole.... We came down together the first lifetime and we are stuck.to the end together. 

This blog will be funny (I finally got my humor back) Informative (I am very good at this) and Healing (you can heal from any illness if you have faith and understand that your mind is a powerful tool)

So if you need love and light you won't always find it here,  if you need a place to meditate and pray it won't be here........ But If you need a place to laugh your ass off and sometimes cry with me..... then your on target.  this blog/book will show that just like pregnancy that looks pretty and wonderful..... but in reality it is a nasty, messy, painful job.  Awakening is too.

This will be about

• Sex... lots of it
• incurable injuries and illnesses
• guilt and fear
• human touch and loving spirit
• unconditional love and compassion
• addictions
• Angelics and ET's
• 2012 and what God Demands from us to keep this World together.
• Reading Energies and Healing thru Energies
• Death and Dying and Imortality