Helping Others

I don't know why I never learn, nor stop this bad behavior that I have.......... it kicks me in the ass every single time.  I bring people into my life or home and lose everything everytime.  This time only 2 people were in my home and my cell phones, camera, broadband and tons of electronic wiring disappeared while I was at the library.  I got 2 of my phones and my camera back......... but one of the phones with all my contacts and broadband is still gone. 

I live my life under the Golden Rule and it hurts so bad to be betrayed.  Even after all of that I cant stop helping people........................... And it will end up killing me.

Because of helping people I have lost
my car
3 homes
the years of content I shot
my ids
cameras
all my clothes
furnitur
my childrens photo albums
my sons clothes
the company that I created
12 pets
and alot of time my self respect.
I have been beaten
Put in jail
verbally abused
Lost my grandchild after raiseing him 8 years
My toothbrush 4 times
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I always try to see good in people and believe in them and sometimes I am honored that I gave some of them second chances... they blossomed into people anyone would be proud to know...... even one that got high and plotted to have me killed.  But the ones that are not redeemable how many chances am I suppose to give? God gave me no freewill........... I am not weak in any form but always treated like I am..... Do I give up being the person I am to survive?

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

I guess I will keep