Chapter One.... and in the beginning?

Well let's get this out first ... my name is Carla Holland-Strange.... feel free to google me.  I have been telling people that for years because I get tired of people not believeing the crazy fucking life I have had.  Hell I would not have believed it if I hadn't had to live every crazy day of it.

Let's go thru a few of the things that God has made me do thru the years, and yes I said MADE me do... it used to be the Devil Made me do it right?  Here is a list of just a few of the things that I have been.

• waitress at 12
• library aide at 16
• city worker doing curb and gutter
• bar waitress
• bartender
• stripper
• brothel prostitute
• Mormon Stake Missionary
• escort
• famous escort
• nude cover model at 350 pounds
• famous escort service owner that only had Big Girls
• famous dog breeder to the stars
• back to escort'hooker
• porn producer (I am listed in the Adult Who's Who)
• and last but not least I am now and forever an Awakened Angelic/ Healer/Intuitive/Empath (and it ain't pretty) and Nudist

Through my awakening I have followed others path in trying to show Love and Light to others that are awakening... but that is all lies and bullshit.  God does not change who you are when you awaken... he changes how you see and feel everything.

I was a pottied mouth, fun porn producer when I began to awaken and I am still a potty mouth Rev. now.  I loved Sex before I awakened and I love it now.... boy do I love it!  Wait till ya have one of those Ultimate God given Orgasms with no fear or guilt!  They are awesomeeeeeeee.  I drank like a fish before I awakened and I still drink, just never get drunk......... unless I am around alot of drunks... that is the Empath in me I guess.

My only changes in who I am as a person is that I realize whatever I do ... never do harm.  I read a blog the other day from another awakened and to be honest, if I had to be that goodie goodie I would kill myself.  In fact everytime someone ask me if I am going to heaven I will tell them I hope not! They don't serve wine there and the bands aren't that good.

I am writing this blog to explain that when you awaken, and you will.  It is going to be scary, hurt like hell and make you want to hide from the world.... just remember two words that God kept throwing at me Believe (believe that your not crazy as a loon) and Faith (have faith in the one that had faith in YOU)

My last blog and future book was the goodie goodie look at awakening with me being the victim/martyr to Rick's evil side.  Thing is I didn't leave Rick for one reason and one reason only!  We are twinflames, two halves of a whole.... We came down together the first lifetime and we are stuck.to the end together. 

This blog will be funny (I finally got my humor back) Informative (I am very good at this) and Healing (you can heal from any illness if you have faith and understand that your mind is a powerful tool)

So if you need love and light you won't always find it here,  if you need a place to meditate and pray it won't be here........ But If you need a place to laugh your ass off and sometimes cry with me..... then your on target.  this blog/book will show that just like pregnancy that looks pretty and wonderful..... but in reality it is a nasty, messy, painful job.  Awakening is too.

This will be about

• Sex... lots of it
• incurable injuries and illnesses
• guilt and fear
• human touch and loving spirit
• unconditional love and compassion
• addictions
• Angelics and ET's
• 2012 and what God Demands from us to keep this World together.
• Reading Energies and Healing thru Energies
• Death and Dying and Imortality